9Mar2014 - Connecting with Father God

How you doin?  So it's the next day.  The days following Sunday morning church, Bible study, conferences, or in this case SOZO are always very interesting to me.  I loved my SOZO yesterday.  The thing that stood out the most to me was the verification of my everyday connection with the Holy Ghost.  I felt so comfortable with Him.  When I say connection, I mean intimate relationship with Him.  I fellowship with the Holy Ghost continually through out my day.  I speak to Him freely and comfortably and speaks back to me and leads me.  I have such a relationship with Him that He is often sarcastic with me.  Sarcastic in the most wonderful and loving way.  I feel like our relationship is on a personal or intimate level.

I connect with Jesus second most.  I'm learning to be more intimate and personal with Jesus.  I find myself looking at Jesus as part of the Trinity that I can't approach.  I think things like "He has already done SO MUCH for me".  During my 1st SOZO, I saw Jesus' face for the 1st time.  I saw it twice during that session.  It was Jesus that offered me the huge breakthrough that came in my first SOZO.  I am learning to fellowship with Jesus.  I understand that He too invites me into a personal relationship with Him.  As I move away from the old covenant and into the new covenant, it's becoming easier to receive the righteousness, that's Jesus' in the first place, to approach Him on a personal and intimate level.  That process started last April 1st.

So, yesterday's SOZO started another process for me.  I connected to Father God for the first time.  During my SOZO, I saw myself crawling into His lap.  While there, I felt His heart beat.  His heart beat was in sync with mine, but much stronger.  I still didn't actually see much of Him like I have seen Jesus and the Holy Ghost, but I'm down with that.  If Moses couldn't see His face, I'm fine with not seeing His face.  The most super natural part of the session was in 2 parts. 1) The session leader used an exercise for breaking off negative past memories.  He said there's a pocket at the bottom of my skull and the top of my spine that holds a life times worth of negative memories, feelings, and unforgiven sins (unforgiven by me, not God).  He then had me put my hand on that spot and ask Father God to empty or get rid of that pocket and all that's in it. Now all of this is for visualization so don't go feeling for a pocket behind your head.  Here's the wild part.  As I had my hand on this spot and was praying for God to take any/all of my negative past from me, I felt His heart beat again on my hand.  The first time was at least 1 hour earlier.  I know that there is no way that I could have felt my own heart beat where I had my hand.  AWESOME!!!!!!!  2)  This part happened to me during my first SOZO as well.  As I was sitting in my chair, I felt weight on me.  It was perfectly distributed over my body.  It was as if I was sitting on top of myself.  The weight was perfectly in the shape of me.  Now of course it was much lighter then me.  It was a noticeable weight, but not a heavy weight or cumbersome weight.  As I explained what was going on to the session leader he immediately and excitedly said "ask Father God if that's Him".  So I did and He said "yes".  I did cry a little. 

Prior to yesterday, I couldn't and hadn't connected to my heavenly Father to this capacity.  I've always believed in God and known Him to be real in my head, but now I've been started in the process of knowing Him in my heart.  The process of comfortably approaching Him with a clean conscience.  WOW WOW WOW!!!!!!! 

Each of the God head hold a special place in my heart and head.  Each individually invite me into a personal and intimate relationship with Him.  There was much more that happen yesterday.  Some will leak out later, no doubt, and some will between me and Him.  Father God did trade me some stuff I didn't want for grace.  AWESOME!!!!!!!  That's a great deal.  The Holy Ghost did offer me a plan for the miracle at my job, but involved loving people, so we're still in negotiations.  I'm guessing He's not budging on His end.  I'll most likely lose the negotiations.  I usually do.  The Holy Ghost also said something about "protecting the owners investment".  I'm still waiting for more details on that one.  I need to go finish getting ready for Audrey's 6th birthday party.  Ask the Holy Ghost to trade something you don't want for something He wants to give you today.