How you doin? Sometimes I think fairly poorly of myself. Attacks on my identity or attempts at identity theft boggle my mind. I tend to allow other peoples "stuff" to rub off on me. Other peoples anxiety, worry, greed, fear, and discontentment. It's awful when it's going on, but it's funny once I regain my identity. I love watching super hero movies and mutation shows and movies. X-Men is one of my favorites. In these types of movies/shows there's usually a character that can take on the appearance, voice, and characteristics of other people. Though this makes for a cool mutation in a movie/show, it stinks in life. Whenever I take on other peoples "stuff" I'm not in my own identity. God didn't create me with this mutation. He created me to be me. He created me to walk in my identity and destiny. I especially don't handle other peoples fear. God is bringing me out of a state of fear over the last 10 years of sobriety. He is bringing me into a state of love. His love and faith. When I accept someone's fear it feels horrible.
Job 2 today. Verses 1-6, "Again there was a day when the sons of God came to present themselves before the Lord, and Satan also came among them to present himself before the Lord. 2 TheLord said to Satan, “Where have you come from?” Then Satan answered the Lord and said, “From roaming about on the earth and walking around on it.” 3 The Lord said to Satan, “Have you[a]considered My servant Job? For there is no one like him on the earth, a blameless and upright man[b]fearing God and turning away from evil. And he still holds fast his integrity, although you incited Me against him to [c]ruin him without cause.” 4 Satan answered the Lord and said, “Skin for skin! Yes, all that a man has he will give for his life. 5 However, put forth Your hand now, and touch his bone and his flesh; he will curse You to Your face.” 6 So the Lord said to Satan, “Behold, he is in your [d]power, only spare his life.”' Here it is again. Satan presenting himself to God along with other angels. Satan is a created being of God. Is it possible that he still must present himself to God because of God's supreme sovereignty? We know Satan is against God, but he is also under God. Perhaps these dialogs occur in the second realm of heaven and not the third. This is also the second time that Satan suggest that God "put forth Your hand". Each time God gives Satan permission to do what he does... evil. Both times God restricts Satan. The first time was Satan couldn't touch Job's body. The second time was Satan couldn't kill Job. Satan's rebellion is on display here in this dialog. God's faith in Job is also on display. God knows His creation very well. I can't picture God doing all this and He's chewing His finger nails all nervous and wondering if Job will hold up. God test Job because He knows Job will pass the test. Verses 9-10, "Then his wife said to him, “Do you still hold fast your integrity? Curse God and die!” 10 But he said to her, “You speak as one of the foolish women speaks. Shall we indeed accept good from God and not accept adversity?” In all this Job did not sin with his lips." Empathize with Job here. You just lost everything you owned and your kids. Now you're covered in painful sores. Would you sin with you lips? Would you be like Job's wife? I'd like to say no, but I wonder. I've experienced suffering in my life and I didn't handle it very well. I'm in a much different relationship with God, but I still wonder.
This Scripture may forever baffle me. I just don't get this one. When I read it I get questions, not understanding. If I'm conscience of my flesh in heaven I'll ask Father God about this Scripture. Unless He tells me here on earth. Stand your ground and pass your test today.
PS I can't understand Satan being amongst the angels and in the presence of God. All I've ever read on Satan is that he's trying to destroy God's creation. That he fights with angels, particularly Michael. Perhaps Satan is subdued in this environment. Otherwise I would think he would be unleashing fury. I know I don't need to understand everything, but this one really gets me. I can't wait for breakthrough.
PPS Since our Doug Addison event has shown up on Elijah's List, our phone an email has blown up. Please pray for us to have the words and strength to minister to the extreme needs of the people that are drawn to this extreme ministry. This is going to be off the hook. We will be stretched and we will grow. God is AWESOME!!!!!!! I thank Him for seeing us as able to pass this test. COME ON!!!!!!!
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